I breathe deeply, my body system tingling as it struggles with the intense alteration in temperature. Breathing on my hands to warm them, I can smell the building’s age. The heavy door slams behind me, shutting out the brutal, cold winter air, and I turn to my father beside me. We quickly exchange awkward “what should we all do now” grins. We’re in a church, both eager to attend our first writers meeting. A brief staircase leads right down to the unknown and seems the only direction available. Clumsily, we descend and find ourselves standing in a little corridor with several different doors to select from, two of which are bathrooms.
Suddenly, a mature woman nearing sixty appears behind us. “Are you here for the meeting?” she asks, which is in that moment that I realize how lost and ridiculous my dad and that i must look. It is only seconds that I obsess with this before another revelation strikes me. She has only made eye-to-eye contact with my father. I’m somehow ignored.
“Yes. It’s our first time,” my dad replies.
“I am still pretty new too. Before we’d it in here.” The girl points and starts to saunter within the direction that they is indicating. Voices resonate, echoing against the walls. Somewhere people are talking. The woman leads us to a room around the corner where I can already see groups gathered, conversing.
As I enter the diminutive throng, I swiftly scan the room, being attentive to the severe time warp I have just intersected. There is an easy twenty years between myself and also the members of the writers group, that we won’t name for confidentiality reasons. They’re, however, very friendly and welcoming and immediately greet us, let me rephrase, my father towards the assembly. My existence hardly acknowledged, Personally i think myself fading into the background, my body becoming part of the dull, plastered, white walls that enclose the tiny room.
We exchange names with the few which come to welcome us and then they begin a conversation with my father, asking him what things he likes to write and such. As i am being practically unseen, I choose to casually observe my surroundings. It is, as mentioned before, a small room with round tables, adorned with vividly colorful table cloths, positioned around a podium. In one corner sits another table, this one rectangle, engrossed in a number of different refreshments to choose from. When I turn my attention back to the conversation before me, However realize I am awaiting something. I am waiting for anyone to ask me, “Hey, exactly what do you are writing?” or “What made you need to visit we?” When they only took a second to ask, they would learn that I am the author of the fiction novel which will debut this season, that i’m a twenty-year-old university student trying to make a name for herself. They’d then notice that I’m probably the most successful people waiting in that room. Instead, I just get looks that ask, “Why is she here? Is she even old enough they are driving?”
I suddenly feel invisible, just the kid that her dad brought along while he couldn’t find elsewhere on her to go. I want to scream and shout making a scene just like a little kid because that is the way they see me. I wish to increase to the nearest old person and shake some sense into them. I will admit which i look young for my maturity, why does my youth have to become my curse? This certainly is not the first time I have been overlooked inside a number of seniors. It’s everywhere I go. My publishers were surprised to locate that I am young. People ask me almost every trip to my job if I am even old enough to possess a job. I have to ask myself if that’s a legitimate question would I be working basically wasn’t old enough? The age of will I begin to get the credit that I deserve? It’s obviously not twenty. Twenty-one? Twenty-five? Thirty? When will the adult world finally see me for the adult I am? I’d this strange concept that, since it is the legal age in the United States, at eighteen I would at last join the “grown-up” world and ultimately come with an opinion that mattered, but I reckon that was just another childish whim.
Why are people so surprised that at twenty, I have written and published a book? Is twenty too young to believe? Countless young adults throughout history have done greater things than writing a magazine. David was seventeen when he killed Goliath. Alexander the Great was sixteen when he found his first colony. At nineteen, Joan of Arc was burned in the stake after leading the French army into several victories throughout the Hundred Years War. By the time he was eight, Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart had already published four sonatas and was entertaining audiences in main cities and courts. Fifteen year old Louis Braille come up with Braille writing system for the blind in 1824. In 1965, S.E. Hinton wrote the famous book The Outsiders at fifteen. Natasha Hull-Richter helped found the Progressive Caucus of the California Democratic Party in 2005 when she was only thirteen, as well as in 2010, Jessica Watson had become the youngest person to sail solo all over the world just sixteen. There are millions more young adults which have done extraordinary stuff that will never be recognized, that are never given the credit that they have so painstakingly earned. How come society keep them a secret? Why does the world continue to question the authority, skill, and intelligence of their youth?
Just days ago, I had been able to attend another writers meeting entirely separate from the very first, this time around by myself. It was being held at Kennesaw State University where I am a student, however it was not exactly linked to the school. In the entrance a little gathering of people had congregated appearing to have intentions of logging into websites and being welcomed to the meeting. I stood included in this, waiting to show in my registration form and then gain allowance to go in and have a seat. I waited and waited and waited until I had been the last one standing in the cluster. It had been immediately apparent that I had been, in the first second I walked in, being judged based on my age. After i finally received the opportunity to sign in and give my registration paper, the woman behind the desk stared up at me with a bewildered expression.